When I wrote the first draft of Post-Its: A Love Story back in 2010, I had no plan. I’m a fly-by-the-seat-of-my-pants kind of writer. I start with a character, come up with a first line, and just kind of see where it takes me.
With Post-Its, I started with an item instead. I was participating in NaNoWriMo, and I needed an idea fast. I looked at my desk and saw the familiar colorful pad of sticky note paper. It was then the story started.
As I got further into the story, the Post-It didn’t really come back into play. The title didn’t make sense with the bulk of the story, and it hadn’t played out how I was kind of thinking it might. The end of November came, and I threw together an ending. I succeeded in my first goal towards being a published author: my story had a beginning, a middle, and an end. But it had nothing that made it special.
After a long talk with a good friend about the story, I started thinking about how to fix it. I thought about what might help make it stand out from the other love stories out there.
After two attempts at rewriting, I gave up and pushed the manuscript aside for a year.
Recently, I’ve started again. This time, the Post-Its come more into play. I’m still not sure how else to make my story stand out, and I still don’t know where the story is going. I was going to share a part of it to get a little bit of feedback, but that’s proving difficult.
With Finding Agnes, it’s been easier to find sections to share. Agnes is a story that tugs at heartstrings – at least I think it does. Each chapter is written separately, and out of order, so many of them can stand on their own. Post-Its is not ending up like that. I’m writing it sequentially, and after writing almost 33 pages, nothing really jumps out as wow this is really awesome and would make people want to read more of the story.
Which worries me.
And makes me wonder the same thing I’ve been wondering for a while now: Why can’t I give this one up?