Last year, it was FORWARD.
And I did move forward. My ex-husband moved out, and I attempted to move my life forward. I threw myself into a million different directions, hoping something would stick. I looked at going to school, I dated a little bit, I sold Tupperware, I started editing, I worked on my own writing. I moved a lot of things in my life forward.
It ended up being a good word for 2011.
I didn’t think I’d pick another word. I couldn’t think of anything. I wasn’t sure what I wanted out of 2012.
After a conversation with Jamie, I started thinking about it again. I wanted something to meditate on in the next year. To make decisions about my future. Especially regarding a career.
I’ve been talking about going back to school since I graduated the first time. I’ve changed my mind a million times, and haven’t actually registered for any classes. I talk about it all the time. Everything sounds interesting. Business, marketing, web design, MFA in writing, law school… I want to try it all. I want to find out what career is “right” for me.
What my life really needs right now, is FOCUS.
I need to FOCUS on what I want, what I need, and what I’m already good at.
I need to FOCUS on myself, my son, my home, my goals.
I need to FOCUS if I’m ever going to find direction.