When I first read about the Summer Blog Social, I wasn’t going to participate. It was mainly started as a response to bloggers not being able to all attend BlogHer ’11. I hadn’t even considered it. (Although the one aspect that does sound like fun is getting to meet some of my favorite bloggers face-to-face.)
I had just barely started figuring out what I really want to do with this here bloggy, and I didn’t just want to bring a whole bunch of traffic from people who only want to make their presence known. You know the types, “Great post. Visiting from XYZ.”
I mean, that works for some people. I know lots of bloggers who are all about building the community and meeting new people. Every post is included in somebody’s link-up and they have a million comments. If that’s what you’re blogging for, then that’s perfect. For you.
I don’t really refer to myself as a blogger. Sometimes I don’t even call myself a writer, because I feel that gives people an unrealistic view of who I am and where I’ve gone with my writer (read: nowhere…yet). But the truth is, I am more of a writer than a blogger. I know I’ve done a lot of confessional writing here, and I’ve done my share of link-ups (because, come on, some of them are really fun). But I’ve also shared other types of writing. And you know what? That’s what I’m here for.
I want to write a novel. I want to be published. That is my dream, my goal, for my life. It’s the whole reason I participated in NaNoWriMo last year, and the reason I started participating in The Red Dress Club. I was looking for other people to help me push myself to get the writing out, and to get some feedback on what I’m writing.
That’s what I love about blogging.
My favorite comments are the ones where someone is telling me what they really think about what I’ve written, or ones where they make suggestions on how to make it better.
So I checked out the Summer Blog Social prompts originally because I was just making the rounds in my Google Reader and I found it both on Four Plus An Angel and a belle, a bean, and a chicago dog blogs. I read through it and found one that I could relate to. Because it’s something I’ve been thinking about a lot recently.
I can imagine a lot of people are going to want to grow their online presence, build a huge readership, get lots of people to Tweet out links to their bloggys.
Please don’t get me wrong. I am not saying this is bad. I’m just saying, it’s not for me.
My bloggy goals reach to the next 3 months. I want to use this space to finish the story I’ve been working on (the one that started with The Woman in the Photograph). Just the first draft. It’s going to need a lot of editing and revision. But I want the first draft to be finished by November, 2011. That way I can start another story for NaNoWriMo ’11.
In the next 6 months, I should have completed three stories. Post-Its (from last year’s NaNoWriMo), the one I’m working on currently, and one from this year’s NaNoWriMo. I want to use my blog to post excerpts from these stories in order to get a little bit of reader feedback. Does the story flow? Are the characters believable? Am I totally fooling myself into thinking I am even the least bit decent at fiction writing? (haha, shameless display of insecurities!)
I’m not going to post every chapter, every section, of these stories. But I am going to post the ones that I feel I could really use some suggestions on. I’ve gotten good feedback before, and I’m hoping for that to continue.
And a year from now?
Maybe I’ll have something ready to submit. Something to throw out there and say, “Please publish me! Make my dreams come true!”
And then I’ll really need all of you. For support.
Especially after I get that first rejection.
Maybe there’s something to this community after all.
Update: Of course, I’m still going to blog about the interesting conversations I have with T, or anything funny that happens with this ridiculous online dating thing I’m trying. Or whatever else I come up with. I just want to focus more on my fiction. Because I feel that’s where my real writing talents lie. And I’m still religiously visiting all of the blogs in my Reader, and commenting. Didn’t you see that last line up there? I love the community feeling. Why do I feel like I’m just going to be misunderstood with this one post?