So…I think you should know that your little brother, 2010, is kind of a big ugly jerk.
I mean, sure, there were some bright spots. In May, the kiddo and I got to go to Disney World with two of the most amazing people I know. And then, in September, said amazing people had a baby. Who is also pretty freaking amazing.
Another bright spot was, of course, escape from the worst boss I have ever had. This new job isn’t quite amazing, but right now I’ve been all about survival. And I wasn’t surviving at the old place. I was dying. So, living is good!
But 2010 also brought about the divorce. That was pretty heartbreaking. I’m not saying it was a surprise by the time it came around, but it still broke my heart. It has forced me to question the very person I am, and what I want out of my life. It still makes me cry to think about everything that has happened in my marriage, and in it’s end. It’s all for the greater good, but damn if it doesn’t just tear me to pieces. In fact, I can’t even bring myself to really write about it – even though I know it would be very cathartic.
The strangest part of the whole year is continuing to live with my perpetually unemployed ex-husband. He continues to live in the house now, but at least he’s employed. And planning on moving out in early 2011. So, thank you for that (and don’t let him screw it up!).
2010 became all about survival. I did what I needed to, and the kiddo and I are pulling into a new year in a better spot than we were when 2010 began. There’s also lots of possibilities on the horizon. 2011 is the year that I am going back to school. I haven’t quite figured out the focus of my studies, but I’m going to do it. I’m going to do everything I have to so that the years to come don’t have to be quite the struggle that 2010 was.
So, dear 2011, I welcome you with open arms and an open mind. I am accepting of whatever you have to bring my way. I really only have one single wish for you, and I really don’t think it’s asking too much.
Please let the ex-husband move out.
That may not solve all my problems, but at least without him there I will finally feel free to move forward with my life. I can make the condo a home for the kiddo and myself. I can feel comfortable to invite my friends to come over, because it won’t be awkward or hostile with him there.
If 2010 was about struggle, then you will be about possibility and changes. I am changing, hopefully for the better, and I have big plans. Please help me with them. I will do my part, but I do need a little help. Some encouragement. That would be awesome. Because there’s this incredible kiddo in my life, and I want everything to be wonderful for him.
So, 2011, welcome. Let’s kick your little brother out of the way and get moving. Because you’re going to be awesome.
Lots of Love,