This is such a soul-searching question, that I find it really hard to answer. I feel a little disappointed in myself simply because I don’t have a straight-forward answer.
My problem is not a fear of failure. My problem, is that I feel like everything just boils right down to money. And I hate money. If I knew I couldn’t fail, I would start a business. Okay? So, why don’t I do just that? Because it takes money. And a lot of money. Business loans? Believe me when I tell you that no one is going to loan me any money. My credit is atrocious. And nobody I know has the money to just throw at me and say, “Yeah go for the gold; here’s the start up cash you need. Follow your dreams! Woo!”
I feel pathetic when I think about how dependent I am on money. I’ve read stories about people quitting their jobs to follow their dreams, and I feel that they have something I don’t.
I don’t have a fall-back income. I don’t have a spouse who can pay the bills and the rent while I spend my days writing business plans, talking to banks for loans, and all the other stuff that comes with starting a business. I don’t have a penny in savings to help me along while I chase my dream. Because to live in this world, especially with me being a mom, you have to have some sort of income.
So I guess, in answer to what would I attempt to do if I knew I could not fail, I would have to say that I would marry a rich guy. Then maybe I would feel like I could afford to try out this whole “business owner” realm of existence.
Or maybe I’d just keep getting in my own way.
So…what would you attempt to do if you knew you couldn’t fail?